Yesterday I spent the whole day with a really positive friend and our combined 7 kids. It was a good day. There was no drama, no stress, just fun creating and crafting together. Even when the kids started drama we were determined to be jolly and go on having a wonderful day. It was a great day! Then last night I slept like a rock. This is the girl who gets bouts of insomnia over every small drama in my life. I need less drama and more something..... I'm in search of it. It's not prayer... every time I lay awake I pray and pray for everyone I know. But it is something that's missing from my christian walk. Maybe it's a positive attitude.
A year ago I made the decision to surround myself with positive people. An excellent decision. It really helped me in my life. Recently I decided to be around positive people I need to be one. Yes, it took me a bit to put that together! ;) Not that I never am positive, but I don't always make a conscious effort.
Just so you know this won't be an easy task for me, I'm a cup half empty type of gal at times... not without reason as right now poor Ryan's is suffering from a slipped/bulging disc in his back that requires surgery which may take a year to get, and he takes a plethora of pain meds every day just to function. BUT... here comes my positive attitude.... it's repairable, in time he'll hopefully be back to his old self.
Being positive I think has a lot to do with the joyful attitude discussed frequently in the Bible. Joyful in the face of trials. (James) Joyful in the face of suffering (Thessalonians) Sometimes it seems like parts of life are too trivial for God to care about but I'm learning more and more that it's more natural to worship God in Church or other setting but I need to worship Him with my whole life! Even in mundane every day tasks. This means I must have a positive, worshipful, attitude when I am going through difficult times I have to be thankful and positive for the gift of eternal life He's made possible. I want worship Him in all my actions every day. And I want to grow closer to Him. I want to smile and be happy and positive in the promises my family and I have, that no amount of trials can take away. I want to be a positive example to my children. (My husband already is, he's a 'make the best of it' type of fella.)
Recognizing negative aspects of your personality is so hard. Sometimes it feels like everything is wrong with me. But it's cleansing and necessary to grow constantly. If God didn't think I needed to go on changing and growing in faith He'd bring me home to heaven right now! So obviously, I've work to do!
Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. Philippians 1:6
