Three words I'm sure no one who knows me would use to describe me, except maybe my husband. Thank the Lord for the gift of a man who sees who I really am.
So here it is almost half a year and I've never yet had the nerve to tell anyone about my blog. I feel like it's a cliche! Everyone has a blog. I'm nervous about what people will think and I'm shy. Shy and unsure of myself....
Last week I spoke to a friend that I felt was being misled by a false doctrine in a book she was reading. I found myself struggling a great deal with doing it the right way. At a certain point I was getting frustrated and wishing I hadn't started. How can you teach and help someone when you are a sin addict yourself! It's like the blind leading the deaf! I felt like such a hypocrite. And yet I felt compelled to tell her that the book she was reading was dangerous. I just didn't know how to conduct myself perfectly and my sin kept hindering me from being able to help in the right way.
She said something to me that had me thinking hard for the remainder of the week: "Amy, you have very high standards for yourself and everyone around you." I think this was a way of saying I'm judgemental. I know that this is a sin I do struggle with, and I'm sure she recognizes it in me. But is having high standards for a Christian lifestyle for myself and others really judging them? Would it be better to expect little of those professing to be Christians? Being a Christian is all about setting a different standard for yourself. Holding yourself to rules that some of the folks you will deal with will not hold themselves to. Ever had an argument with an unbeliever who thinks you're telling them how to live? It's hard. They don't argue with the same set of rules you do. It's like being at war with a terrorist! But as I thought on this subject this week one text kept coming back to me.
I can do everything through him who gives me strength. Philippians 4:16
Now I just have to work hard on BELIEVING that!
